- Date 2008-01-22 14:03 - Subject (no subject) - Security Public - Tags in my head

So Tweak just said “happy single’s awareness day”… is it surprising to anyone that not a day goes by that I’m not aware of my singleness? Perhaps in realizing there’s not much to be happy about on 'normal' days, I should be happy about it just for today?

Because honestly, every day- I am acutely aware every time I come home and no one greets me naked at the door with a cocktail, the dishes aren’t done, the floor not vacuumed, house not dusted, kitchen not mopped, bed not made, shower not scrubbed, dirty clothes still dirty, towels not folded, mail still in mailbox, bills in need of payment, checkbook unbalanced, trash in need of taking out, house cluttered, I’m out of coffee, creamer, sugar, ( those are the worst days for me) the grass growing, fence in need of weed-eating, yard in need of landscaping, plants needing water, refrigerator empty, litter box in need of emptying, or I'm out of catfood... I'm aware that I'm the only person living here.

….and then of course, not a day goes by that I don’t realize I’m not having SEX !

Did I miss anything? My dear single friends, please feel free to add to the list !!! Or if you’re not single and remember the days of old… or want to tell us “be glad you don’t have to …” then by all means, jump right in :)

P.S. Shout out to firehead…. I have the tv on in the background and just heard Number 15 on vh1’sMaxim Hot 100 just state that Guitar Hero is the greatest game ever made :) so I hope that alleviates any shame you may be feeling over your enjoyment of it :p

And they just had a commercial for a 'Rhythym of the 90's' double CD that I think I must buy... because it has Stereo MC's 'Connected' and dammit, I used to dance my ass off to that song!!! I was often single then too, but those were far more fun single days... not only was I in Atlanta for the entire decade, but I was younger and surrounded by queers and/or very colorful wonderful people.

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- User libra2 - Date 2008-01-23 00:09 (UTC) - Subject (no subject)

YES! Then I could have a housekeeper, yard person, and... um, giga-person depending on my mood :p LMAO!! Don't get rawled up... I fall in love with the person, not the body parts. I could probably never hire a call girl being that they all seem so so so femme- the type of girl I'm least attracted to. As a matter of fact, I usually only am attracted to lesbians and possibly never have been attracted to a straight girl. I think that speaks volumes about my attraction to that edgy self posessed and power quality of lesbians. Well, that am usually attracted to slightly less feminine than me, definitely not more than me. I find androgynous women very appealing :)))))))

And about your other posts, I too am very independent and have spent far more time out of relationships than in them. And have never 'searched' or been seeking, so much so that I think it's the reason I've been single so much... I think I have some trust issues. I hate strangers! Not that I don't meet people, but I don't want to date someone that I don't know or at least that my friends haven't kind of 'pre-screened.'

I spent more than 15 years going out at least twice a week and I always stay with my friends. I'd talk to them, stand or sit with them, dance with them, and leave with them. Am weird that way... and yes, have usually ended up falling in love with friends or people who were in the same running circle. But I just don't like to hang out with people I don't know.

I suppose I'm as 'okay' with myself as I'm going to get, though have been moreso at times than now. Yet, I always feel a sense of 'not QUITE good enough.' AHHHH! I hate when I confess online!!!! B

But I'm 42. I never ever was desperate to get married, again, the opposite if anything. It's just been in the last few years... okay, around the time I turned 40 that I really became bored. Just bored with the same-o same-o of being single. And then it could also have to do with the fact that I never wanted kids, but it freaked me out when 39, 40, 41, now 42 that I sort of forgot to have kids :p There's something about no longer really having the option. And I know, adoption. But I was adopted and always just assumed I'd have a biological child- especially since a child would be my only biological connection on this earth.

*shrugs* I've heard it said that by choosing not to choose, you've actually made a choice. And it never seemed more true than now when it comes to kids. I think I'm the only person I know that would actually prefer to date someone with kids... I think I'd be a pretty good stepmom and definitely I would rock as a grandma!!!!!!!!!

And dammit, I miss having sex (with others :p)

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